Really Old Works [repost from MySpace]

this is from 3-20-06
I hate the way I am without you
An empty broken shell
You say you're feeling no pain
Without me oh well
So tell me why im dying
If I said I wasn't, I lied
Cause im just not myself
Without you by my side

Cant you see
Im nothing without you
Bits of us still remain
In everything I do
I cant sleep
Its killing me
I just want you
To be happy
But the pain im feeling
Makes me wanna die
I lied

I swore to you
we would be forever
that's just how long
you'll have my heart
My whole world
was wrapped around you
Without you
I don't know how to start
I promise im not still trying
To win you back oh well
Life without you isn't grand
It's just the closest I can get to hell


this is from 2-24-06
I hate my insecurity
When I don't know what to say
It seems like its stalking me
I just cant get away
This fight is killing me
Nothing's what it seems to be
Listen while I get this straight…

This won't end in a good way
Time and time I start to fall
And I don't want to get hurt
Id really rather lose this fight
so we can make it work tonight
But promise me
You wont walk away
Walk away

It hurts when you turn from me
And you bottle up inside
I just can't find a way to be
And there's no where to hide
In the darkness of this room
No one's ready to give up…

In the end it's going to be
Only what you want
There is no compromise
Sorry is so hard to find


this is from 11-5-07 (two days before matt and i got together)
Its that funny feeling in your stomach
A laugh when no one says a word
You feel as though you've been running
Your heart is racing to keep up
A never ending roller coaster
It takes all you have not to scream
Your breath stops as if every moment
Maybe it was meant to be

::CHORUS::
Love
It rips you apart and tears you down
When you don't feel
Quite as happy when he's not around
Your heart is aching, your hands are tied
And all you can do is cry
Maybe all this is worth it
Just to feel.
Alive

Its the second wind when you've had no sleep
A cool breeze on a summer day
You wont stop even when it feels
You're barely hanging on
The smallest things make you happy
It takes all you have not to scream
Your breath stops as if every moment
Maybe it was meant to be

::CHORUSx2::

When its all said and done
You'll have no regrets
The way you feel now
It can only get better…

Love
It rips you apart and tears you down
Now you feel
Just as happy that he's not around
Your heart is breaking, your hands are tied
Nothing good will come if you cry
But you know everything was worth it
Just to feel.
Alive


this is from like december 06 i think
Another picture of my empty driveway
Zoom in on my empty heart.
Because I begged to make me wrong about you
But we're still a million miles apart
As much as I love being around you
Is it really worth it to break my heart?

I just sit here crying alone
You proved me right again
I gave you an inch
You took a mile
And now it's the end

Because I've gave up on trying
Zoom in on my lonely arms
I'm trying to make myself wrong
For once I don't want to win
If winning means losing you
I'm willing to give in


this is from january 07
I love the way your hand slips into mine
And how your eyes light up when you smile
Id give it all to see that everyday
For the rest of forever
And id die just to sleep in your arms once
Cause all the ways I sigh are summed up
Summed up in just one word
Love


and this is from august 6 2006 (8-6 is matts birthday, and this is before i talked to him at all.. i was living at my dad's)
if you cant promise forever,
just promise me tonight
wrap your arms around me,
and hold me nice and tight
whisper that you love me,
even though the words aren't true
deep inside im dying when
i say i love you too

[thats my favorite piece i've ever written]